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tantric meditation with light techniques 31 march 1973 pm in bombay, india | ||
CONSIDER YOUR ESSENCE AS LIGHT RAYS FROM
CENTER TO CENTER UP THE VERTEBRAE, AND SO RISES "LIVINGNESS" IN YOU. OR IN THE SPACES
BETWEEN, FEEL THIS AS LIGHTNING. FEEL THE COSMOS AS
A TRANSLUCENT EVER-LIVING PRESENCE. Man can be
considered in three ways: in terms of the normal, the abnormal and the supernormal.
Western psychology is basically concerned with the abnormal, the pathological, with the
man who has fallen down from the normal, who has fallen down from the norm. Eastern
psychology, tantra and yoga, consider man from the standpoint of the supernormal -- of the
one who has gone beyond the norm. Both are abnormal. One who is pathological is abnormal
because he is not healthy, and one who is supernormal is abnormal because he is MORE
healthy than any normal human being. The difference is of negative and positive. Western psychology
developed as part of psychotherapy. Freud, Jung, Adler and other psychologists were
treating the abnormal man, the man who is mentally ill. Because of this the whole Western
attitude towards man has become erroneous. Freud was studying pathological cases. Of
course, no healthy man would go to him -- only those who were mentally ill. They were
studied by him, and because of that study he thought that now he understood man.
Pathological men are not really men, they are ill, and anything based on a study of them
is bound to be deeply erroneous and harmful. This has proved harmful because man is looked
at from a pathological standpoint. If a particular state of mind is chosen and that state
is ill, pathological, then the whole image of man becomes disease-based. Because of this
attitude, the whole Western society has fallen down -- because the ill man is the base,
the perverted has become the foundation. And if you study
only the abnormal, you cannot conceive of any possibility of supernormal beings. A buddha
is impossible for Freud, not conceivable. He must be fictitious, mythological. A buddha
cannot be a reality. Freud has only come in contact with ill men who are not even normal,
and whatsoever he says about normal man is based on the study of abnormal man. It is just
like a physician who is doing a study. No healthy man will go to him, there is no need.
Only unhealthy people will go. By studying so many unhealthy people, he creates a picture
in his mind of man, but that picture cannot be of man. It cannot be because man is not
only illnesses. And if you base your concept of man on illnesses, the whole society will
suffer. Eastern psychology,
particularly tantra and yoga, also has a concept of man, but that concept is based on the
study of the supernormal -- Buddha, Patanjali, Shankara, Nagarjuna, Kabir, Nanak -- on
persons who have reached to the peak of human potentiality and possibility. The lowest has
not been considered, only the highest. If you consider the highest your mind becomes an
opening; you can grow because now you know higher reaches are possible. If you consider
the lowest, no growth is possible. There is no challenge. If you are normal you feel
happy. It is enough that you are not perverted, that you are not in a mental asylum. You
can feel good, but there is no challenge. But if you seek the
supernormal, the highest possibility that you can become, if someone has become that
possibility, if that possibility has become actual in someone, then a possibility for
growth opens. You can grow. A challenge comes to you, and you need not be satisfied with
yourself. Higher reaches are possible and they are calling you. This must be understood
deeply. Only then will the psychology of tantra be conceivable. Whatsoever you are is not
the end. You are just in the middle. You can fall down, you can rise up. Your growth has
not finished. You are not the end product; you are just a passage. Something is constantly
growing in you. Tantra conceives of
and bases its whole technique on this possibility of growth. And remember, unless you
become that which you can become, you will not be fulfilled. You MUST become that which
you can become -- it is a must! Otherwise you will be frustrated, you will feel
meaningless, you will feel that there is no purpose in life. You can carry on, but there
can be no joy in it. And you may succeed in many other things, but you will fail with
yourself. And this is happening. Someone becomes very rich and everyone thinks that now he
has succeeded. Everyone except himself thinks that he has succeeded. He knows his failure.
Wealth is there, but he has failed. You are a great man, a leader, a politician. Everyone
thinks that they have succeeded, but they have failed. This world is strange: you succeed
in everyone's eyes except your own. People come to me
daily. They say they have everything, but now what? They are failures, but where have they
failed? As far as outward things are concerned they have not failed, so why do they feel
this failure? Their inner potentiality has remained potent. They have not flowered. They
have not achieved what Maslow calls "self-actualization." They are failures --
inner failures, and ultimately, what others say is meaningless. What you feel is
meaningful. If you feel that you are a failure, others may think that you are a Napoleon
or an Alexander the Great, but it makes no difference. Rather, it depresses you more.
Everyone thinks that you are a success, and now you cannot say that you are not -- but you
know you are not. You cannot deceive yourself. As far as self-actualization is concerned
you cannot deceive. Sooner or later you will have to call upon yourself and look deeply
into yourself at what has happened. The life is wasted. You have given up an opportunity
and gathered things which mean nothing. Self-actualization
refers to the highest peak of your growth, where you can feel a deep content, where you
can say, "This is my destiny, this is for what I was meant, this is why I am here on
earth." Tantra is concerned with that self-actualization -- with how to help you grow
more. And remember, tantra is concerned with you, not with ideals. Tantra is not concerned
with ideals; it is concerned with you as you are and as you can become. The difference is
great. All teachings are concerned with ideals. They say become like Buddha, become like
Jesus, become like this or that. They have ideals, and you have to become like those
ideals. Tantra has no ideal for you. Your unknown ideal is hidden within you; it cannot be
given to you. You are not to become Buddha, there is no need. One Buddha is enough, and no
repetition is of any value. Existence is always unique, it never repeats; repetition is
boredom. Existence is always new, eternally new, so even a Buddha is not repeated -- such
a beautiful phenomenon left unrepeated. Why? Because even
if a Buddha is repeated it will create boredom. What is the use? Only the unique is
meaningful; copies are not meaningful. Only if you are firsthand is your destiny
fulfilled. If you are secondhand, you have missed. So tantra never
says be like this or that; there is no ideal. Tantra never talks about ideals; hence, the
name "tantra." Tantra talks about techniques -- never about ideals. It talks of
HOW you can become; it never says what. It exists because of that how. Tantra means
technique; the very word tantra means technique. It is concerned with "how" you
can become, it is not concerned with what. That "what" will be supplied by your
growth. Just use the technique, and by and by your inner potentiality will become actual.
The uncharted possibility will become opened, and as it opens you will realize what it is.
And no one can say what it is. Unless you become it, no one can predict what you can
become. So tantra gives you
only techniques -- never ideals. This is how it is different from all moral teachings.
Moral teachings always give ideals. Even if they talk about techniques, those techniques
are always for particular ideals. Tantra gives no ideal to you; you ARE the ideal, and
your future is unknown. No ideal from the past can be of any help because nothing can be
repeated, and if it is repeated it is meaningless. Zen monks say to
remember and be alert. If you meet Buddha in your meditation, kill him immediately; don't
allow him to stand there. Zen monks are Buddha's followers, and yet they say kill Buddha
immediately if you meet him in your meditation, because the personality, the ideal of
Buddha may become so hypnotizing that you may forget yourself, and if you forget yourself
you have missed the path. Buddha is not the ideal; you are the ideal, your unknown future.
That has to be discovered. Tantra gives you
techniques of discovery. The treasure is within you. So remember this second thing: it is
very difficult to believe that you are the ideal -- difficult for you to believe because
everyone is condemning you. No one accepts you, not even you yourself. You go on
condemning yourself. You always think in terms of being like someone else, and that is
false, dangerous. If you go on thinking like that you will become a fake and everything
will be phoney. Do you know from where the word `phoney' comes? It comes from telephone.
In the early days of the telephone, the transmission was so false, so unreal, that a real
voice and a phoney voice were heard from the telephone -- a phoney voice that was
mechanical. The real voice was lost -- just in those beginning days. From there comes the
word phoney. If you are imitating someone else, you will become phoney, you will not be
real. A mechanical device will be there all around you, and your reality, your real voice,
will be lost. So don't be phoney, be real, Tantra believes in
you. That is why there are so few believers in tantra -- because no one believes in
himself. Tantra believes in you and says that you are the ideal, so don't imitate anyone.
Imitation will create a pseudo personality around you. You can go on moving with that
pseudo personality thinking it is yourself, but it is not. So the second thing to remember
is that there is no fixed ideal. You cannot think in terms of the future; you can only
think in terms of the present -- just the immediate future in which you can grow. No fixed
future is there, and it is good that there is no fixed future; otherwise there would be no
freedom. If there were a fixed future, man would be a robot. You have no fixed
future. You have multi possibilities; you can grow in many ways. But the only thing that
will give you ultimate contentment is that you grow -- that you grow in such a way that
every growth produces further growth. Techniques are helpful because they are scientific.
You are saved from unnecessary wandering, unnecessary groping. If you don't know any
techniques, you will take many lives. You will reach the goal because the life energy
within you will move unless it comes to the point where no movement is possible. It will
go on moving to the highest peak, and that is the reason why one goes on being born again
and again. Left to yourself you will reach -- but you will have to travel very, very long,
and the journey will be very tedious and boring. With a master, with
scientific techniques, you can save much time, opportunity and energy. And sometimes
within seconds you can grow so much that within lives even you will not be able to grow
that much. If a right technique is used growth explodes, and these techniques have been
used in millions of years of experiments. They were not devised by one man; they were
devised by many, many seekers, and only the essence is given here. In these one hundred
and twelve techniques, all techniques from all over the world have been covered. Nowhere
does there exist any technique which has not been covered in this one hundred and twelve;
they are the whole spiritual search in essence. But all the techniques are not for
everyone, so you will have to try them out. Only certain techniques will be helpful to
you, and you will have to find them out. There are two ways: either by your own trial and
error, until you stumble upon something which starts working and you start growing, and
then you move in it; or you surrender to some teacher and he finds out what will suit you.
These are the two ways. You can choose. Now the technique. The first
technique:
"CONSIDER YOUR ESSENCE AS LIGHT RAYS
RISING FROM CENTER TO CENTER UP THE VERTEBRAE, AND SO RISES `LIVINGNESS' IN YOU." Many yoga methods
are based on this. First understand what it is; then the application. The vertebrae, the
spine, is the base of both your body and mind. Your mind, your head, is the end part of
your spine. The whole body is rooted in the spine. If the spine is young, you are young.
If the spine is old, you are old. If you can keep your spine young, it is difficult to
become old. Everything depends on your spine. If your spine is alive, you will have a very
brilliant mind. If the spine is dull and dead, you will have a very dull mind. The whole
yoga tries in many ways to make your spine alive, brilliant, filled with light, young and
fresh. The spine has two
ends: the beginning is the sex center and the end is SAHASRARA, the seventh center at the
top of the head. The beginning of the spine is attached to the earth, and sex is the most
earthly thing in you. From the beginning center in your spine you are in contact with
nature, with what Sankhya has called PRAKRATI -- the earth, the material. From the last
center, or the second pole, SAHASRAR, in the head, you are in contact with the divine.
These are the two poles of your existence. First is sex and second is the SAHASRAR. There
is no word for SAHASRAR in English. These are the two poles. Either your life will be sex
oriented or SAHASRAR oriented. Either your energy will be flowing down from the sex center
back to the earth, or your energy will be released from the SAHASRAR into the cosmos. From
the SAHASRAR you flow into the BRAHMAN, into the absolute Existence. From sex you flow
down into the relative existence. These are the two flows, the two possibilities. Unless
you start flowing upwards, your misery will never end. You may have glimpses of happiness,
but only glimpses -- and very illusory ones. When the energy
starts moving upwards you will have more and more real glimpses. And once it reaches the
SAHASRAR and is released from there, you will have the absolute bliss with you. That is
NIRVANA. Then there is no glimpse; you become the bliss itself. So the whole thing for
yoga and tantra is how to move energy upwards through the vertebrae, through the spinal
column, how to help it move against gravity. Sex is very easy because it follows
gravitation. The earth is pulling everything down, back; your sex energy is pulled by the
earth. You may not have heard it, but astronauts have felt this -- that the moment they
move beyond the earth's gravity they don't feel much sexuality. As the body loses weight,
sexuality dissolves, disappears. The earth is
pulling your life energy down and this is natural, because the life energy comes from the
earth. You eat food and you are creating life energy within you; it comes from the earth,
and the earth is pulling it back. Everything goes to its source. And if it continues to
move in this way, life energy going back again and again, and you are moving in a circle,
you will go on moving for lives and lives. You can go on moving this way infinitely unless
you take a jump just like the astronauts. Like the astronauts, you have to take a jump and
move beyond the circle. Then the pattern of earth's gravitation is broken. It can be
broken! The techniques for
how it can be broken are here -- for how the energy can move vertically and rise up within
you, reaching new centers; for how new energies can be revealed within you, making you a
new person with every move. And the moment the energy is released from your SAHASRAR, the
opposite pole of sex, you are no more man. Then you don't belong to this earth; you have
become divine. That is what is meant when we say Krishna is God or Buddha is God. Their
bodies are just like yours -- their bodies will have to fall ill and they will have to die
-- everything happens in their bodies as it happens to you. Only one thing is not
happening in their bodies which is happening to you: the energy has broken the gravitation
pattern. But that you cannot
see, it is not visible to your eyes. But sometimes when you are sitting by the side of a
Buddha, you can feel this. Suddenly you feel an upsurge of energy within you, and your
energy starts moving upwards. Only then do you know that something has happened. Just by
being in contact with a buddha your energy begins to move upwards towards the SAHASRAR. A
buddha is so powerful that even the earth is less powerful; it cannot pull your energy
downwards. Those who have felt this around a Jesus, a Buddha, a Krishna, have called them
God. They have a different source of energy which is stronger than the earth. How can the pattern
be broken? This technique is very useful for breaking the pattern. First understand
something basic. One, if you have observed at all you must have observed that your sex
energy moves with imagination. Just through imagination your sex center starts
functioning. Really, without imagination it cannot function. That is why if you are in
love with someone it functions better -- because with love imagination enters. If you are
not in love it is very difficult. It will not function. This is the reason
why male prostitutes were not found in the old days, only women prostitutes. It is
difficult for a male prostitute if he has no love, and how can he have love just because
of money? You can pay a man to have intercourse with you, but if he has no imagination for
you he cannot function. Women can function because their sex is passive. Really, their
functioning is not needed. They can be totally detached; they may not be feeling anything
at all. Their bodies can just be there like corpses. With a prostitute you are not making
love with a real body -- only with a dead corpse. But women can easily be prostitutes
because their sex is passive. The sex center
functions through imagination. That is why even in dreams you can get erections and
ejaculations. They are actual. Dreams are just imagination. It has been observed that
every man, if physically fit, will have at least ten erections in the night. With every
movement of the mind, with only a slight thought of sex, the erection will come. Your mind
has many energies, many faculties, and one is will. But you cannot will sex. For sex will
is impotent. If you try to love someone, you will feel you have gone impotent. So never
try. Will never functions with sex; only imagination will function. Imagine, and the
center will start to function. Why am I emphasizing this fact? Because if imagination
helps the energy to move, then you can move it upwards or downwards just by imagination.
You cannot move your blood by imagination; you cannot do anything else in the body by
imagination. But sex energy can be moved by imagination. You can change its direction. This sutra says,
"CONSIDER YOUR ESSENCE AS LIGHT RAYS" -- think of yourself, your being, as light
rays -- "FROM CENTER TO CENTER UP THE VERTEBRAE" -- up your spine -- "AND
SO RISES `LIVINGNESS' IN YOU." Yoga has divided your spine into seven centers. The
first is the sex center and the last is SAHASRAR, and between these two there are five
centers. Some systems divide into nine, some into three, some into four. Division is not
very meaningful, you can make your own division. Just five centers are enough to work
with; the first is the sex center, the second is just behind the navel, the third is just
behind the heart, the fourth is behind your two eyebrows, just in between, in the middle
of the forehead. And the fifth, SAHASRAR, is just on the peak of your head. These five
will do. This sutra says,
"CONSIDER YOURSELF...", which means imagine yourself -- close your eyes and
imagine yourself just as if you are light. This is not just imagination. In the beginning
it is, but it is reality also because everything consists of light. Now science says that
everything consists of electricity, and tantra has always said that everything consists of
light particles -- and you also. That is why the Koran says that God is light. YOU are
light! Imagine first that you are just light rays; then move your imagination to the sex
center. Concentrate your attention there and feel that light rays are rising upwards from
the sex center, as if the sex center has become a source of light and light rays are
moving in an upsurge -- upwards towards the navel center. Division is needed because it
will be difficult for you to connect your sex center with the SAHASRAR. So smaller
divisions will be of help. If you can connect, no divisions are needed. You can just drop
all divisions from your sex center onwards, and the energy, the life force will rise up as
light towards the SAHASRAR. But divisions will be more helpful because your mind can
conceive of smaller fragments more easily. So just feel that
the energy -- just the light rays -- is rising up from your sex center to your navel like
a river of light. Immediately you will feel a warmth rising in you. Soon your navel will
become hot. You can feel the hotness; even others can feel that hotness. Through your
imagination the sex energy will have started to rise. When you feel that now the second
center at the navel has become a source of light, that the rays are coming and being
collected there, then start to move to the heart center. As the light reaches the heart
center, as the rays are coming, your heartbeat will be changed. Your breathing will become
deeper, and a warmth will come to your heart. Go on upwards. "CONSIDER YOUR
ESSENCE AS LIGHT RAYS FROM CENTER TO CENTER UP THE VERTEBRAE, AND SO RISES `LIVINGNESS' IN
YOU." And as you will feel warmth, just side by side you will feel a
"livingness," a new life coming to you, an inward light rising up. Sex energy
has two parts: one is physical and one is psychic. In your body everything has two parts.
Just like your body and mind, everything within you has two parts -- one material and the
other spiritual. Sex energy has two parts. The material part is semen; it cannot rise
upwards, there is no passage for it. Because of this, many physiologists of the West say
that tantra and yoga methods are nonsense and they deny them completely. How can sex
energy rise up? There is no passage and sex energy cannot rise. They are right and still
wrong. Semen, the material part, cannot rise -- but that is not the whole of it. Really,
it is only the body of sex energy, it is not the sex energy. The sex energy is the psychic
part of it, and the psychic part can rise. And for that psychic part, the spinal passage
is used -- the spinal passage and its centers. But that has to be felt and your feelings
have gone dead. I remember
somewhere that a certain psychotherapist wrote about a patient, a woman. He was telling
her to feel something, but the psychotherapist felt that whatever she did she was not
feeling, but thinking about feeling -- and that is a different thing. So the therapist put
his hand on the woman's hand and pressed it, telling her to close her eyes and relate what
she felt. She said immediately, "I feel your hand." But the therapist
said, "No, this is not your feeling. This is just your thinking, your inference. I
have put my hand in your hand; you say you are feeling my hand. But you are not. This is
inference. What do you feel?" So she said,
"I feel your fingers." The therapist again
said, "No, this is not feeling. Don't infer anything. Just close your eyes and move
to the place where my hand is; then tell me what you feel." Then she said,
"Oh! I was missing the whole thing. I feel pressure and warmth." When a hand touches
you, a hand is not felt. Pressure and warmth are felt. The hand is just inference, it is
intellect, not feeling. Warmth and pressure, that is feeling. Now she was feeling. We have
lost feeling completely. You will have to develop feeling; only then can you do such
techniques. Otherwise, they will not function. You will just intellectualize, you will
just think that you are feeling, and nothing will happen. That is why people come to me
and say, "You tell us this technique is so significant, but nothing happens."
They have tried, but they are missing a dimension -- the feeling dimension. So first you
will have to develop that, and there are some methods which you can try. You can do one
thing. If you have a small child in your house, follow the child around for one hour every
day. It will be better and more fulfilling than following a buddha. Allow the child to
move on all fours, and you also move on all fours. Just follow the child moving on all
fours, and you will feel for the first time a new life energy coming to you. You will
again become a child. Look at the child and just follow. He will go to every corner; he
will touch everything -- not only touch, he will taste everything, he will smell
everything. Just follow, and do whatsoever he is doing. You were also a
child once; you have done this. The child is feeling. He is not intellectualizing, he is
not thinking. He feels a smell, so he moves to that corner from where it is coming. He
sees an apple, so he tastes it. Just taste like a child. Watch when he is eating the
apple, look at him: he is totally absorbed in it. The whole world has dropped, the world
is no more there -- only the apple. Even the apple is not and the child is not -- only the
eating. Just follow a small child for one hour. That hour will be so enriching, you will
become again a child. Your defense
mechanisms will drop, your armor will drop, and you will start looking at the world as a
child looks -- from the feeling dimension. When you feel that now you can feel, not think,
you will enjoy the texture of the carpet on which you are moving like a child, the
pressure, the warmth -- and just by innocently following a child. Man can learn much from
children, and sooner or later your real innocence will erupt. You were once a child and
you know what it means to be one. You have simply forgotten. The feeling center
must start functioning; only then will these techniques be of any help. Otherwise you will
go on thinking that energy is rising, but there will be no feeling. And if there is no
feeling, imagination is impotent, futile. Only a feeling imagination will give you a
result. You can do many other things and there is no need to make a specific effort to do
them. When you go to sleep just feel your bed, feel the pillow -- the coldness. Just turn
onto it; play with the pillow. Close your eyes and
listen to the noise of the air conditioner, or of the traffic or of the clock or anything.
Just listen. Don't label, don't say anything. Don't use the mind. Just live in the
sensation. In the morning, in the first moment of waking, when you feel that now sleep has
gone, don't start thinking. For a few moments you can again be a child -- innocent, fresh.
Don't start thinking. Don't think about what you are going to do and when you are starting
for the office and what train you are going to catch. Don't start thinking. You will have
enough time for all that nonsense. Just wait. For a few moments just listen to the noise.
A bird is singing or the wind is passing through the trees or a child is crying or the
milkman has come and is making sounds or the milk is being poured. With anything that
happens, feel it. Be sensitive to it, open to it. Allow it to happen to you, and your
sensitivity will grow. When taking a
shower, feel it all over the body -- every drop of water touching you. Feel the touch, the
coldness, the warmth! Try this the whole day whenever you have the chance, and everywhere
there is a chance -- everywhere! When just breathing, feel the breath -- its movement
within and its going out -- just feel it! Just feel your own body. You have not felt it. We are so afraid of
our own bodies. No one touches his own body in a loving way. Have you ever given any love
to your own body? The whole civilization is afraid of anyone touching himself because from
childhood touching has been denied. It appears to be masturbatory to touch oneself in a
loving way. But if you cannot touch yourself in a loving way your body will go dull and
dead. It has gone so. Touch your eyes with your palms. Feel the touch, and your eyes will
feel fresh and alive immediately. Feel your body all over. Feel your lover's body, your
friend's body. Massage is good. Two friends can massage each other and feel each other's
bodies. You will become more sensitive. Create sensitivity
and feeling. Then it will be easy for you to do these techniques, and then you will feel
"livingness" arising in you. Don't leave this energy anywhere. Allow it to come
to the SAHASRAR. Remember this: whenever you do this experiment, don't leave it in the
middle. You have to complete it. Take care that no one disturbs you. If you leave this
energy somewhere in the middle, it can be harmful. It has to be released. So bring it to
the head and feel as if your head has become an opening. In India we have
pictured SAHASRAR as a lotus -- as a thousand- petalled lotus. `SAHASRAR' means a
thousandpetalled -- an opening of a thousand petals. Just conceive of the lotus with a
thousand petals, opened, and from every petal this light energy is moving into the cosmos.
Again, this is a love act -- not with nature now, but with the ultimate. Again, it is an
orgasm. There are two types
of orgasms: one is sexual and the other spiritual. The sexual comes from the lowest center
and the spiritual from the highest center. From the highest you meet the highest and from
the lowest you meet the lowest. Even while actually in the sex act, you can do this
exercise; both the partners can do this. Move the energy upwards, and then the sex act
becomes tantra SADHANA; it becomes meditation. But don't leave the
energy somewhere in the body at some center. Someone may come and you will have some
business, or some phone call will come and you will have to stop. So do it at such a time
that no one will disturb you, and don't leave the energy in any center. Otherwise that
center where you leave the energy will become a wound, and you may create many mental
illnesses. So be aware; otherwise don't do this. This method needs absolute privacy and no
disturbance, and it must be done completely. The energy must come to the head, and it
should be released from there. You will have
various experiences. When you will feel that the rays are starting to come up from the sex
center, there will be erections or sensations at the sex center. Many, many people come to
me very afraid and scared. They say that whenever they start meditation, when they start
to move deep, there is an erection. They wonder, "What is this?" They are afraid
because they think that in meditation sex should not be there. But you don't know life's
functioning. It is a good sign. It shows that energy is now there alive. Now it needs
movement. So don't become scared and don't think that something is wrong. It is a good
sign. When you start meditation the sex center will become more sensitive, alive, excited,
and in the beginning the excitement will be just the same as any sexual excitement -- but
only in the beginning. As your meditation becomes deeper, you will feel energy flowing up.
As the energy flows, the sex center becomes silent, less excited. When the energy
will really move to the SAHASRAR, there will be no sensation at the sex center. It will be
totally still and silent. It will have become completely cool, and the warmth will have
come to the head. And this is physical. When the sex center is excited, it becomes hot;
you can feel that hotness, it is physical. When the energy will move, the sex center will
become cooler and cooler and cooler, and the hotness will come to the head. You will feel
dizzy. When the energy comes to the head, you will feel dizzy. Sometimes you may even feel
nausea because for the first time energy has come to the head and your head is not
acquainted with it. It has to become tuned. So don't become afraid. Sometimes you may
immediately become unconscious, but don't be afraid. This happens. If so much energy moves
suddenly and explodes in the head, you may become unconscious. But that unconsciousness
cannot remain for more than one hour. Within one hour the energy automatically falls back
or is released. You cannot remain that way for more than one hour. I say one hour, but in
fact it is exactly forty-eight minutes. It cannot be more than that. It never has been in
millions of years of experiments, so don't be afraid. If you do become unconscious, it is
okay. After that unconsciousness you will feel so fresh that it is as if you have been in
sleep for the first time, in the deepest sleep. Yoga calls it by a
special name -- YOGA TANDRA: yogic sleep. It is very deep; you move to your deepest
center. But don't be afraid. And if your head becomes hot, it is a good sign. Release the
energy. Feel as if your head is opening like a lotus flower -- as if energy is being
released into the cosmos. As the energy is released, you will feel a coldness coming to
you. You have never felt the coldness that comes after this hotness. But do the technique
completely; never do it incompletely. The second
technique: "OR IN THE SPACES BETWEEN, FEEL THIS AS
LIGHTNING." This is a very
similar method with a slight difference: "OR IN THE SPACES BETWEEN, FEEL THIS AS
LIGHTNING." Between one center and another, as rays are coming, you can feel it like
lightning -- just a jump of light. For some people the second will be more suitable and
for others the first. This is why there is a modification. There are people who cannot
imagine things gradually and there are people who cannot imagine in jumps. If you can
think and imagine gradually, then the first method is good. But if you try the first
method and you suddenly feel that from one center the rays jump directly to the second,
then don't do the first method. The second is better for you. "FEEL THIS AS
LIGHTNING" -- like a spark of light jumping from one center to the next. And the
second is more real because, really, light jumps. There is no gradual step-by-step growth.
Light is a jump. Look at the
electric light. You think it is constant, but that is illusory. There are gaps, but the
gaps are so small that you cannot detect them. Electricity comes in jumps. One jump, and
then there is a gap of darkness. Another jump, and then there is a gap of darkness. But
you never feel the gap because the jump is so fast. Otherwise, every moment there is
darkness. Again there is a jump, light comes, then again darkness. Light jumps, it never
travels. For those who can conceive of jumps, the second modification is best. "OR IN
THE SPACES BETWEEN, FEEL THIS AS LIGHTNING." Just try it. If you feel good with the
rays coming gradually, it is okay. If you don't feel good and rays are jumping, then
forget about rays. Think of this as lightning in the sky, in the clouds, just jumping from
one place to another. For women the first
technique will be easier and for men the second. The feminine mind can conceive of
gradualness more easily and the male jumps more easily. The male mind is
"jumpy"; it jumps from one thing to another. There is a subtle uneasiness in the
male mind. The female mind has a gradual process, it is not jumpy. That is why female and
male logic are very different. A man goes on jumping from one thing to another, and for
women this is inconceivable. For them there must be growth -- gradual growth. But choose.
Try these, and choose whichever you feel is good for you. Two or three things
more about this method. With lightning you may feel such hotness that it may seem
unbearable. If you feel that, don't try it. Lightning can give you much heat. If you feel
this, that it is unbearable, then don't try this. Then with the first method, if you are
at ease, then it is good. Otherwise with uneasiness don't try it. Sometimes the explosion
can be so great that you may become afraid of it, and once afraid you will never be able
to do it again. Then fear enters. So one has to be
aware always not to become afraid of anything. If you feel that fear will come and it is
too much for you, don't try it. Then the first method with light rays is best. If you feel
that even with light rays too much hotness is coming to you -- and it depends because
people differ -- then conceive of the rays as cool, imagine them as cool. Then instead of
feeling warmth you will feel a coldness with everything. That too will be effective. So
you can decide; try and decide. Remember, with this technique, and with others also, if
you feel very uneasy or anything unbearable, don't do it. There are other methods, and
this one may not be for you. With unnecessary disturbance inside, you will create more
problems than you will solve. In India, because
of this, we have developed a particular yoga which we call SAHAJ YOGA. SAHAJ means
spontaneous, easy, natural. Always remember SAHAJ. If you feel any technique spontaneously
coming to you, if you feel more affinity with it, if you feel better with it -- more
healthy, more alive, more at home -- then that is the method for you. Move with it; you
can trust it. Don't create unnecessary problems. And the inner mechanism is very complex.
If you do something which is too much for you, you may destroy many things. So it is
better to move with something which feels harmonious to you. The third
technique: "FEEL THE COSMOS AS A TRANSLUCENT
EVER-LIVING PRESENCE." This again is
concerned with light: "FEEL THE COSMOS AS A TRANSLUCENT EVER-LIVING PRESENCE."
If you have taken any drugs such as LSD or some such thing, the whole world around you
becomes a light phenomenon of colors that are translucent, alive. This is not because of
LSD. The world is such, but your eyes have become dull. The LSD is not creating a colorful
world around you; the world is already colorful, nothing is wrong with the world. It is a
rainbow of colors -- a mystery of colors and translucent light. But your eyes have become
dull. That is why you can never feel it in such colorfulness. LSD is just
clearing your eyes. It is not making the world colorful; it is just helping your dullness
to go chemically, and then the whole world erupts before you. It is a new thing. Even an
ordinary chair becomes a marvelous phenomenon. Just a shoe on the floor takes on new
colors, a new youth. Ordinary traffic noise becomes musical. Trees you have always seen
but never looked at are born anew though you have always passed them by and you know you
have seen them. Every leaf of a tree is a miracle. And this is how
reality is. It is not LSD which is creating this reality. LSD is just destroying your
dullness, your insensitivity, and you look at the world as one should really look. But LSD
can give you only a glimpse, and if you depend on it, sooner or later even LSD will not be
able to remove your dullness. Then you will need greater doses, and then you will become
immune to greater doses. And, really, if you then leave LSD or other drugs, the world will
be duller than it has ever been. Then you will become even more insensitive. Just a few days ago
a girl came to see me. She said she could not feel any orgasm in the love act. She has
tried many men, but she cannot feel any orgasm. The peak never comes, and she has become
frustrated. So I asked her to tell me her whole love and sex life -- the whole story. Then
I discovered that she had been using an electric vibrator. Now in the West they are using
these. Once you use an electric vibrator as a male penis, then no male can satisfy you
because an electric vibrator is, after all, an electric vibrator. Then your vagina and
clitoris will go dead, dull, and then orgasm will become impossible. Then there won't be
any possibility of any orgasm. You will now need a more powerful electric vibrator, and
this can go to such an extreme that your total sexual mechanism will become stony. And
this is happening to our every sense. If you use any outer device, you will become dull. LSD will make you
dull ultimately because with it you are not growing. If YOU grow, then it is a different
process. Then you become more sensitive, and as you become more sensitive the world
becomes different. Now you can sense many things you never sensed before because you were
not sensitive. This technique is
based on inner sensitivity. First grow in sensitivity. Just close your doors, make the
room dark and light a small candle. Sit near the candle with a very loving attitude --
rather, with a prayerful attitude. Just pray to the candle, "Reveal yourself to
me." Take a bath, throw cold water on your eyes, then sit in a very prayerful mood
before the candle. Look at it and forget everything else. Just look at the small candle --
the flame and the candle. Go on looking at it. After five minutes you will feel that many
things are changing in the candle. They are not changing in the candle, remember; your
eyes are changing. With a loving
attitude, with the whole world closed out, with total concentration, with a feeling heart,
just go on looking at the candle and the flame. Then you will discover new colors around
the flame, new shades which you were never aware were there. They are there; the whole
rainbow is there. Wherever light is, the rainbow is there because light is all color. You
need a subtle sensitivity. Just feel it and go on looking at it. Even if tears start
flowing, go on looking at it. Those tears will help your eyes to be more fresh. Sometimes you may
feel that the flame, the candle, has become mysterious. It is not the ordinary candle you
brought with you; it has taken on a new glamor, a subtle divineness has come into it. Go
on doing this. You can also do this with many other things. One of my friends
was telling me that a group of five or six persons had been experimenting with rocks. I
had told them how to experiment, and then they reported to me. They were experimenting
with rocks on the bank of a lonely river. They were trying to feel them with their hands,
with their faces, touching the rocks with their tongues, smelling the rocks. In every way
possible they were feeling the rocks -- just ordinary rocks which they found on the bank. They tried this for
a whole hour, everyone with a rock. And then, my friend reported, there was a miracle.
Everyone said, "Could I keep this rock? I have fallen in love with it!" An
ordinary rock! If you have a sympathetic relationship with it, you will fall in love. And
if you don't have that sensitivity, then even with a very beautiful person you are with a
rock; you cannot fall in love. Sensitivity must
grow. Your every sense must become more alive. Then you can experiment with this
technique. "FEEL THE COSMOS AS A TRANSLUCENT EVER-LIVING PRESENCE." Everywhere
light is -- in many, many shapes, forms, light is happening everywhere. Look at it! And
everywhere light is because the whole phenomenon is based on the foundation of light. Look
at a leaf or a flower or a rock, and sooner or later you will feel rays coming out of it.
Just wait patiently. Don't be in a hurry because nothing is revealed when you are in a
hurry. In a hurry you are dull. Wait silently with anything, and you will discover a new
phenomenon which was always there, but of which you were not alert -- not aware of it. "FEEL THE
COSMOS AS A TRANSLUCENT EVER-LIVING PRESENCE," and your mind will become completely
silent as you feel the presence of the ever-living existence. You will be just a part in
it, just a note in the great symphony. No burden, no tension... the drop has fallen into
the ocean. But great imagination will be needed in the beginning, and if you are also
trying with other sensitivity training it will be helpful. You can try many
ways. Just take someone's hand into your hand. Close your eyes and feel the life in the
other. Feel it, and allow it to move towards you. Feel your own life and allow it to move
towards the other. Sit near a tree and touch the bark of the tree. Close your eyes and
feel the life arising in the tree, and you change immediately. I have heard about
one experiment. A doctor was experimenting with people to see whether their feelings
changed their biochemistry. Now he has reported that feeling changes biochemistry
immediately. He experimented with a group of twelve persons. He collected their urine
before the experiment, and the urine was ordinary, normal. Each person was put
under a different stress. One was shown a film of horror, anger, violence, cruelty -- it
was just a film -- for thirty minutes he was shown a film of horror. Of course, with the
film his emotions changed. He felt stress. To another a very joyful film was shown. He
felt happy. And so on went the experiment for twelve persons. Then their urine was taken
again and the urine analysis showed that everyone's urine was different now. The chemicals
had changed in the body. The person who felt horror was ill now; the person who felt hope,
happiness, joy, was healthy now. His urine was different, the chemicals of the body were
different. You are not aware
of what you are doing with yourself. When you go to see a murder film, you don't know what
you are doing. You are changing your body chemistry. If you are reading a detective novel,
you don't know what you are doing. You are killing yourself. You will become excited, you
will become afraid, a tension will come to you. That is how you enjoy the detective novel.
The more tense you become, the more you enjoy it. The more the suspense over what is going
to happen, the more you get excited -- and you are changing your body chemistry. All these
techniques also change your body chemistry. If you feel the whole world as filled with
life, light, then you are changing your body chemistry. And this is a chain reaction. When
your body chemistry changes, you can look at the world and it will look more alive. And if
it looks more alive, your body chemistry will change again, and then it becomes a chain. If this method is done for three months, you will be living in a different world because you will be different now. |
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